~BeLLe eLLe Smileys~

I'm really missing you!

2010-10-23T04:16:00.000-07:00

Im really missing you! ever felt like the guy that is not right for you seems to be the only guy you wana be with? yuppyupp! raise ur hand if you are ever in the same boat as me! :"(lets all cry tgt k? :'(

im really officially missing you and someone stole you!!!

Anyway, 2 more days and at 2.30 is OLEVEL DAY1!!

oh my tian... the previous time that i rmb everything is that i was sec3! wow.. those were really sweet memories in hai sing!! haha!! you guys should know why!

Anyway, i just cant believe that i have actually graduated frm hai sing already! no one can expect that "Joelle! You are growing up"! not literally but mentally :P of course, i am still as short as ever (growing 1cm every year... pathetic-.- i knw) but really it has really been a great time being with all my last year seniors and definitely my class peeps! *you are the best thing that has every been mine (friends)*

i fell in love with my wifey- Miki and as well as my one and only girlfriend- Ginko (dont feel sad you are second babe) and I became part of Dacy, Rishon and the slick Melissa:) haha!

Really love all of them:P and sorry HK, i only realised how important friends are now to me!

As i leave this school (of course take exam, results and posting first lahh... ) I really wana treasure my class!! 4E3'10!!!!

wonderful bunch of peeps! i will be missing you guys!!

not only that, i still got my prefects!! wonderful juniors too!! haha! and definitely i will be missing my partner (not in crime) Lucas Leong!! ahah!! miss you dude!! and many other people from prefects too!!

And last but not least are the Youth Reach peeps! haha! (just in case- im talking about people group here only, individual will be countless!) you guys really put a smile on my face when i see you guys perform!! haha!! im really gonna miss u dudes and shawty! haha!

Hamielle

2010-07-04T21:49:00.000-07:00

Hahaah!! I've got a cool nickname for myself...

HAMMIELLE.. hahah!! cool right? this is all inspired from Ryan Chew!! The hamster i am today plus my name.... HAAHAH!! So cool!! i kinda like this name, so if i wana change my name, It'll be this!! ahah!! Anyway, someone told me about 3 weeks ago that he likes me and he does because I love the Lord.. HAHA!!

Though it was simple crush, but it really meant one thing.. that one basis of true love is GOD in the CENTRE!!

O'level chinese coming le.. so on for it!! i hope that i can do well... shucks man!! haha!! Nvm, God is the God of language.. AMEN???

Anyway, gotta do myself now.. CHOWSS!!

My song for you!

2010-06-15T09:01:00.000-07:00

This song slightly tells of my feelings now...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cNARz-8jVfg

I Love you hubby!!

2010-06-15T08:38:00.000-07:00

Imagine loving a person but you just cant be with him...

There's a person that I truly love deeply and i dont think i can ever let go off him in my heart, but i know that i have to move on in life... there are many things awaiting me and i have to go... however, i know one thing is that my heart will always be with him...

It is the story of loving someone but you realised only later that you loved the wrong person.. But i can tell you that i have never regretted loving this person. I cant never forget him and i can never ever be with him..

Everything is such an irony but this is reality.. It doesnt go the way that you want and it doesnt mean the way that you think it means.. both of us do agree that we are from to different ends of the world and we can never meet soundly.. im not sure if in due future, we may change and meet again or maybe we may never be able to be together again, but one thing i know is that this type of love hurts. i have never ever felt this way before and i believe that this is the one and only time im going to experience this...

I know that leaving him is for my own good and for his as well.. honestly, what may be good for you doesnt mean that you may like it, but all we really are looking to is God to be the centre of the situation..

My heart aches very badly and i know that i cant let go, but i am now happy that i am not tying him down and he doesnt have to worry anymore... I am no longer in control of him and i believe that i am wrong to think so even from the very start... I have no rights to say that he is mine and i shouldnt have held him back, but i really really treasured the moments with him...

Guess if my mum read this, she'll be shocked, but mummy i have to say this...

Hongkai I love you, but sorry i cant be with you... Ironic, but all reality.

I have to hold on now for a bumpy ride in my life as i continue with the growing process, but i know that i am secure at the very state that i am in now because we both are satisfied with where we are at..

Love is not self-centered... This is the best way that we can show our love, through our selflessness and sacrifices..

I believe the Lord will bless us as we go on, not as a couple but more of soul mates that cannot be tgt...

Another three months away from FB!

2010-06-09T09:09:00.000-07:00

Previously i had my own "campaigne":P (3 months away from facebook!)

haha!! i have just started campaigne part 2 as im gonna take the challenge of leaving my facebook account for 3 months again!! hahah! i wont be touching it so... hahah!! this is going to be exciting.. however i still roughly know what is going on in facebook, so dont you dare talk back about me! haha!

Btw, Jeremy chuan told me about our primary6 class gathering that may either be on a monday or a tuesday! haha! honestly im actually quite looking forward to it because i believe all of us have grown and it'll be so exciting to see how we have changed!!

The best of all is that it is LEE SEI CHANG who is proposing this whole outing! hahah!! so surprising!! He was one of the wierdest of that class.. he also had a nickname of Mark Simsons!! but nevertheless i believe that he has changed over the year.. hahah! sorrie Sei Chang, still cant believe that it was you who proposed^^

Haahaa!! and i will always remember Asyura and Jaga, my best friends forever! hope that the can go for that outing as well!! hahah!

Btw, Miss Lee and Mr Shuen got married!! congrats! haha!! so wierd, my english teacher and yet my debate teacher getting married.. hahah!! so CUTE!!

Anyway, i just want to remind you that love is patient and love is kind, most of all it is not self-seeking:) ive got much to learn about loving people and being the leader in the right way, i guess that is what Zac means by not having the leadership quality in me. there's always room for improvement and i know that I'm one who is not good at relationships, that's why im not prepared :( but, i will be the best i can for the man that i love!! heehee^^ as of now..

TT:p love you to the max!!

~~~Elle~~~Smileys!!

My prayer

2010-06-05T11:02:00.002-07:00

Dear God,

I pray for 某某 that he would learn to understand his purpose in life and know that you are God above all. May you grant peace to 某某 and help him to do everything that is God-honouring... May you give him a definite answer of what type of man that he wants to be when he is older and may he listen to you and not the things of this world. 某某 never listens to me, but I believe he'll definitely listen to you! God I pray that you will always be with 某某 for the rest of his life and help him to u derstand how much a couple can accomplish when the couple depends of God or strength and ministry. 某某 loves You too God (I hope) and I know that when he loves You, it's because You loved him first. May you grant 某某 everlasting faith in you that grows over the period of time! God I place 某某 in your hands and may You guide him and grant his wisdom in every aspect of his life.

In Jesus Name, AMEN!!

My prayer

2010-06-05T11:02:00.001-07:00

My prayer

2010-06-05T11:02:00.000-07:00

So Close

2010-05-23T07:51:00.000-07:00

Why do birds suddenly appear, everytime you are near
Just like me they long to be close to you

Why do stars fall down from the shy, everytime you walk past
Just like me, they long to be close to you

On the say that you were born, the angels got together and
Decided to create a dream come true,
so they sprinkled moon dust in your hair,
a golden starlight in your eyes of blue...

That is why all the girls in town follow you all around
just like me they long to be close you.

This songs explains how i feel now... A guy that i like that i will never be able to come close to, yet there are so many many people around him.. Mummy, guess u know who he is... hahah!!

Distance is one thing, but what happens around him when im away is another thing..

imagine really lyking a person and yet you are afraid of being hurt... and you hestitate whether to fully like that person..

Promises shall not be empty promises.. and true love promises to wait.. is this true love or just another love game?

My heart likes this person, but i know that i am not ready to get into a relationship:

It's not honouring my mum
im afraid
My heart is not ready to commit
I dont know if i can devote my time to him

Mum says 18 years old, but there is a possibility that i have so much more things on my hands then and i cant commit...

The world has impacted me in many ways, from leading a life of ME to leading a life of impurities, but i have decided to dedicate my life to love the Lord before i can love anybody else... i want to run back to that first love again, i want to feel and acknowledge again, the feeling of my heart being warm and accepting to everything around me.

I know very strongly that there is a hinderance in my heart that is blocking me from loving the Lord and experiencing Him in a whole new level.. and i believe that i will face a break through soon...

And to someone out there if you are reading this:
To love the Lord means to know Him better. God is LOVE and the only place that you can find wholeness is through God and through Him only. No earthly desires and pleasures can help you and keep you. No desires and culture of this world can help you to gain PURPOSE AND SIGNIFICANCE or ACCEPTANCE AND BELONGING...

You may be with a thousand people, but you are still onely.

You may be with a love one, but you know that you are still lonely..

What is ur purpose in life today? Find it. Explore it. Submit it to JESUS!!

>>>Joke of the Day:

hey hey you readers out there, i just want to tell you something.. you are:

Kind
Accepting
Never failing friend
Admirable
Supendous
Ambracable
Intelligent

In simple terms, you are K.A.N.A.S.A.I.

hahah!! just kidding...

Love,
Joelle
*Smileys*

REALLY REALLY LONG TIME...

2010-04-24T23:59:00.000-07:00

It's really been a long time since ive updated my blog! Guess blogging is already out of date but even so, i have a blog, so just have to post right? :P

if you have realised, ive not been on facebook for the longest times and i have 80 plus friends pending and waaiting to be my friend... hahha!! i really am fasting and banning myself from going in there is not only to pray and fast but to also prevent me from being distracted by the emotions in facebook... Esp those angry ones or lost ones.. !! haha!!

I've really been staying pure and waiting for the Lord to work in my life. Its have been a really tough time going through so much temptations where i already there are 3 people liking me, but i rejected each and everyone of them.. Im not gonna mention who they are, but i really told them not to wait for me.. Im not worth the wait.

It's not that my self-esteem is low all of a sudden but i think this is the only way that i can do well and concentrate...

The recent 2 sermons that have really been speaking to me were:
1. Staying Pure in a sex craze world.
Honestly, I have to say that i have over stepped a lot of boundaries and it is time that i need to make some! hahah!! so, whoever who is going to be with me.. GET READY!! hahah!!

2. The Lord is my Shepherd.
Yesterday, Elder Freddy Boey preached on Psalm 23:2 "He makes me lie in green pastures, He leads me beside quiet waters" It was about the need to be calm in our lives spiritually.. i have a lot of anxiety and worries and i really really am going to lift it all up to God.. i really really want to get married!! you may call me a despo, but i see it as a gift from God to really want a family that He can use and that can help to glorify His Name. It is really a high calling and it's really a burdern of God in my heart to see His people praising Him!

WOW!! so many things happening in my life and i am still typing here!! haha!!

Okie okie.. Signing off!!

*Smileys*

Long time no post!! hahah!!

2010-02-21T05:41:00.000-08:00

Carry your candle, run to the darkness, seek by the light and pour out your cry!!
So hold up your candle and run to the darkness, take ur candle go light the world!
TAKE THE CANDLE AND GO LIGHT THE WORLD!!

It's really been a long time since i have posted anything!! hahah! I have really really changed alot and i have let Hongkai Go le!! honestly, my mother was quite open to him, but apparently he left me for another girl and still can thick skin tell me "Yeah..."

You know what, im glad that i am not with a womanizer, i know that there is someone out there waiting for me and i am glad that the Lord has everything prepared for me! i hate frickle minded people and guess what, he is just exactly like my dad!!

i dont know how much to thank God tat i broke with him, thorugh i may need time to recover, but i am really really fine!!

Josh on the other hand could be on my mind now, but i dont know and i will wait,,,, but i know my future will be good cause i look to Jesus!!

A guy like him is really not worth having... so Hongkai's gf listen up!! think twice before you get a bf and Hongkai, stop breaking the hearts of the other girls!!

i reali reali wanted to do a big bday celebration for him, but now I'm glad that i can have enough to buy Josh a gift,,, his bday next week leh!! hahah!!

BACK FROM CAMP!!

2009-12-29T21:32:00.000-08:00

BACK FROM CAMP!!

I cant believe how much the Lord revealed to me during church camp!! i reali reali have no doubts about this the Lord has prepared!! though Ministry time could be more... still... i believe that i should seek the Lord and be consistent in my QT!! It's time i run back to the Lord and seek His face!!

i have not been reading the Bible and at times i just dont see the need to do so... but now that i see that i reali need help in changing my life and my purpose of life even more... i need to seek the Lord for help! Though i have everything planned out neatly and nicely... I need to learn how to obey e Lord and once He says no... that means no!!

JIA YOU JIA YOU!!

My Ministry...

2009-12-06T07:29:00.000-08:00

The worship ministry is something that i would give my life and my future to see it grow and impact the children. And this passion for children also drives me to be excellent for God..

i reali reali dont know what to expect out of joining this ministry... just to be rooted in the Word of God i guess..

i think one thing that reali brings me to wanting to serve more is to hear the kids sing and raising their hands and closing their eyes and reali reali singing from the bottom of their heart!!.. esp those slow and beautiful songs like Amazing Grace or even like today, Lord I give you my heart!! Or even when you see them jumping to the song like NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!!

it is reali an encouragement to me that whenever i'm tired, all i have to do is lift everything up to God and give Him all the glory cause i know that i dont live by what i see and feel...

I do have to agree tat i tend to take things for granted and most of all at times do put my feelings in the work that i do... like... i like math so i do math... or even i'm sick of head prefect so im nt going to put in my effort...

I reali dont feeel like it.. but i know it is the right thing to do and so... i believe that i must take a step of boldness to do something that i dont wan to do, but have to do!!

It's sad tat at times you see that the person you love may not be saved of even looking down on you.. but i believe that the Lord has something in mind... and i believe that He'll guide me...

wat jian min said is right.. love is not about sparks... it is not like an adrendalin rush... but it is feeling that stays in your heart and that tells you.. hey hey there... u've got me!!

Honestly... my love for the Lord may not be the all sparks type... there are at times that i dont wana love Him... lyk... LEAVE ME ALONE moments... but i believe that He'll always see me through the rough times :)

@@@ I can ONLY do all things through CHRIST who'll strengthen me!! :)@@@

The memories of a Child

2009-11-26T21:30:00.000-08:00

You can lose everything that you can have... they could be taken away but there is one thing Apart from GOD IN YOUR HEART that you cannot take away... and those are memories...

yes you may end up in an accident and get STM and LTM (choy!!) but these memories are bound to come back to you someday and because i just realised this fact, i have decided to live a life and life to the fullest...

Yesterday i went to Shi Yun's house and before that i took a little stroll down Pasir ris Street 71 and went to my old house where i grew up... block 767... I couldn't recognise it at first but i realised that i love that place so much... because tat was where i had great memories....

Sorry la... really tempted to write what i remembered :P

1. Changing my dad's gear when he was driving

Oh man! that was so fun... and when he send me to my nanny's house when i was young i would watch how he changed his gear and i even remembered.... the same old method every single day... so there were many days i helped him to change the gear... and guess what... I WAS ONLY 5 YEARS OLD!! hahah!!!

2. Going to the play ground that i once loved!! ahaha!!

I walked the very footsteps i took around the nearby garden and the playground that i used to play in! I remember those monkey bars i used to play... hahah!! so so fun!!

3. KALANG GUNI- CHONG!!

That was wat my family used to call me... apparently... i kept everything and treasured everything!! haha!! and i promised you that i cried on the day of the SPRING CLEANING:P hahah!!

4. In the morning...

before i was sent to my nanny's house, my mother would prepare a cup of milk for me every morning on the coffee table... and because it was so earli... i would run to the living room, jump on to the sofa and sleep or watch tv!! hahah!! mum in the end always have to nag at me:P But i wonder where dad was... anyway...

5. prank on Grandma!!

i always remember that!! ahah... we were watching a ghost show the night before and we rang the bell so that she would open the door and get a shocked out of her life!! :P for us, we just hid at the nearby staircase and wait till she went in before we did it again!! hahahah!! SHE FREAKED OUT MAN!! I remembered that i could not control my laughter, so much till we got caught:P hehehe!! oopps!!

6. the drooling sensation!!

HAHAH!! i drool on anybody's shoulders!! mum, dad, aunty michelle, aunty ros.. hahah!!! anybody that carried me and i fell asleep yuppyupp!! hahah!!

7. ICE-CREAM-LAI(come in chinese)!!

we were walking along orchard road and it was warm... so i carried this super small umbrella that only convered me and i was on mum's shoulders... then she asked me if i wanted ice-cream and because it was so warm and i was so tired (yet didnt wana put the umbrella down)... I replied " ICE-CREAM-LAI" and i pratically stretched my hands out to the cart and waved my hand as though i was flagging a taxi... ahahah!! Mum was so embarrased... hahaha

And many many more embarrassing moments like rolling off the bed... and squating at the corner when i was punished... aiya... it was all trash... but memoriable:P hahah!!

All memoriess to a child seem so precious and well remembered... i believe that before i go forth and impact others, I myself need to be impacted first!! ^^

ALL FOR JESUS!!

Ah-The-Belle

*Smileys*

@@@I CAN do all things through CHRIST who'll Strengthen ME!!@@@

JEALOUSY KILLS

2009-11-24T02:17:00.000-08:00

JEALOUSY KILLS... your soul, your character and most of all your behaviour...

i've been so spoilt with all the things... attention, friends, family and even the very things that i wanted... but never did once did i realise that how much i needed something to belong to me belong to me...

i mean i share a father with some bloody siblings that i dont know... i do share some friends too and family members... i reali reali dont wan to share the things that i love with some body else... there are things that are mine and i dont like others to TOUCH... i know i sound like a spoilt brat and selfish with the things that i have around me... but its me!! i'm trying to change, but do you know how de bloody difficult it is to change...

i get reali reali jealous and that it the reason why my blackface come about... dont blame me if i get that feeling... it comes with my personality...

im a person who is full of pride and i like and love pride... i need my face and i cant believe that i was so willing to lose that face in the past... i dont reali share what i am going through w people nowadays.. i reali reali feel the pain and ache when i see otherrs in my position like IN A PICTURE or even IN MY POSITION!!

I dont know why im so sensitive nowadays... could be my PMS but solving this jealousy issue is so difficult.... GIVE ME TIME MAN!! i never had to experience this time of "healing and wholeness" and i reali know that the problem lies with me... hais...

@@@I CAN do all things Thru CHRIST who'll strengthen me!!@@@~i'm reali believing in it!!

Every one was beautiful in every single way...

2009-11-21T20:33:00.000-08:00

Everyone was beautiful in every Single Way...

No matter how you look, the amount of make up you put or the dress that you wear... as long as you are confident that you are looking good... that is how you determine Your Beauty.

Beauty is in the eyes of the Beholder... You dont have or need people to come over to you to tell you how you look, whether you are pretty or you put too much make up... you know it yourself.... and for me... i believe that everyone was the smartest they were on Friday Night!!

Honestly, if you were to ask me who was the prettiest... i would say everyone was in every different way:)

Hey Hey... STOP JUDGING PEOPLE LA!! haiyo.... guyzzz...

sometimes you ought to have a break....

2009-11-17T18:56:00.000-08:00

sometimes you ought to have a break...

i realli realli believe that i need a break.

A few days ago, someone confessed to me that he likes me.... and it is not only 1... but 3...
if i were me last time, i would say that i am spoilt for choices... i mean, who wouldnt wan 3 guys chasing after you and begging you to be with them... honestly, if you were a girl, you would reali reali love tat type of feeling... but im different now...

Obviously i am still a girll... a lady rather:P heehee!! but i just wan2 say that i am changed in e way tat i tink... i dont live by what i see and feel anymore... i live by faith... and that is one thing taht has brought me tis far... i dont reali reali lyk the feelin that guys are chasing after me anymore becos i would only give them false hope and i reali reali dont wan that to happen...

i dont wana destroy their future by asking them to wait for me... honestly, i was and am very very pissed off with the whole thing....

truly in my heart I have only one guy that i like.... but im not sure if he does.. have been very very close with him, having fun going to church and out at times... but im just plain blank about what is going to happen next... i guess i just have to wait for the future.. 18 yrs old!! :)

I dont know what God has planned for me, but i believe that it is going to be good!!

Well... Reali reali love you!! heehee!!

Muacks!
Joelle
*Smileys*

@@@I CAN do all things Thru CHRIST who'll Strengthen ME!!@@@

My COMP CRASHED!!

2009-11-10T05:52:00.000-08:00

Now i'm using my aunties comp so to tell you... MY COMP REALI CRASHED!!

Hais. welll... considering the fact that the comp is alr about more than 4 years old... XP...

Anyway, i believe that during this time of without the com... God gave me the time to focus on Him, my dog and most of all, my music.

He has impressed on the SuperLife Worship Band that He is going to move the sanctuary and i believe that we have alreadi seen Him work in that place!! The children were beautiful, jumping and singing to the Lord from the top of their voices... ALL FOR CHRIST!!

Most of all.. i can tell you that the most beautiful angels are the Lord's Children, today i went to HLA to bedok green primary and i can tell you that there hasnt been a day that i appreciate children more. They were cute and enthu, but one thing they lack was the acknowledgement of the Love of CHRIST in them:(

Tell you smtg funnie!! AMZAR learnt that we should always cary our own tissue paper... cause you know wat happened?... He took a piece of tissue from some Primary 3 boy that he was incharge of and the boy started to... CRY!! haha!! we were totally making fun of him during the debrief lo...

Overall i just wanto say that i had a great time and thank leaders for tolerating me again!! too bossy.... i know...!!

Ah-the-belle
*Smileys*

~~~I CAN do all things thru CHRIST who'll strengthen me!!~~~

Destiny will tell:)

2009-10-04T03:31:00.000-07:00

I know my DESTINY!! It is found in my B.I.B.L.E. (:
I live by faith and not by sight!!

I believe it and i'll receive it (:

I have seen God really watching over me through this week. It has been tough because of the exams... the stress... the impatience... the super weird me appears... haha!! (Actually I'm always weird :P)

HAHA!! anyway... I really believe that true love waits and there is someone today that really showed me that it does (: I'll date you in future too... if can lo (: hehe!! JUST KIDDING.... but honestly...

HEEHEE!! Anw... i served today... i tell you wat... my singing went off real bad during the first service... and for second service... i couldn't even hear myself... but PaPa-Heng (who is going NS in 2 days time) said that it was good... so... hahah... believed his words:P anw... i believe that all worship is good and pleasant to God's ears (:

Honestly... i cant believe that exam is gonna be over in 2 days time!! and that we'll be able to go out soon!! PARTY-PARTY o_O... heehee (:

I believe that God has been good... and i'm telling you... HIS LOVE ENDURES FOREVER (:

I'm giving you a free gift of eternal life!! Dont let this gift pass you by... and most of all... It does not include "WHILE STOCKS LAST:P"

heehee!!
Loves..
Ah-the-Belle
*Smileys*
~~~You CAN do all things thru CHRIST who strengthens you!!~~~

HEY HEY Joshua Koh!! Let's go forth and serve with JOY!!

To a special friend:
I'm sorrie that i broke your heart...
I'm sorrie that i left you...
And most of all... I'm sorrie for being a burden to you...
I will always be your friend in need and nothing more...
You'll be free from the agony that you've always had to face...
Honestly, you didn't love me anymore... you were just forcing yourself....
Let your heart tell you what is right...

Most of all... do all you can in your O's... dont let me down... dont let God down...
dont let your family down... down let your friends down...
Have faith, be still and know that God is near...
I believe in Destiny that comes from the LORD (:

Trust and lean not on your own understanding because...
you CANNOT live by what you SEE and FEEL...

I believe that you can do it... so does everyone else...
dont lose faith because you FEEL LIKE IT!!...
as i've always said... i cant assure ur future, but one thing i can assure you is that....
It'll be blessed only if you believe...

U know what is best for you sweetie... dont let Jesus pass you by (:

From here I wish you all the best... and most of all... BE AN IMPACT TO THE WORLD (:
HURRY UP!! Your future is waiting for u (:
and stop womanizing le la... worldly love cannot fill your heart...
be willing to accept a perfect love God can give you.. a LOVE that died for you so that you can have the eternal life in paradise that everyone on earth is trying to achieve but cannot with their works... Though it is difficult to talk to you now... i still wan you to know that I will always cover you with prayers (:

Strength comes from CHRIST And CHRIST alone (:

I'm Sorrie Prefects!!

2009-09-17T02:46:00.000-07:00

I'm sick and tired of having to scold the Prefects... they are good, but it is just that my expectations of them are too high...

I dont know what to say... neither do i know what to do... Everytime i stand in front of them, they know that i am going to scold them... nag at them or whatsoever....

I reali reali feel very bad Prefects, for having to always shout at you and scolding and nagging at you guys...

I have decided that i am not going to say anything from now on... Shirlee will be leading in giving the instuctions and the scoldings in the morning...

Firstly, i dont wana have to embarrass the Prefects, and most of all... I dont wan them to feel guilty... I wana do my best in being a head Prefect that leads the board well and save the board...

I am the Shepard and this is my flock... My master is the Lord God:)

I pray that you guys will be able to have fun and most of all grow in the Prefectorial Board, that you will rise up to be the leaders you've always wanted to be....

Prefects, be humble and respectful to your peers, seniors and yourselves, do not give up... Dont be like me because this was not wat i had expected to become and wished i hadn't become.

I wish you all the best in the Prefectorial Board, hoping that you will have a good time.:)

~~~I CAN do all Things thru CHRIST who Strengthens ME!!~~~

*Smileys*
Joelle

I am very very tired... LET ME STUDY!!

2009-09-14T04:36:00.000-07:00

I dont know you... but i study when i am stressed....

I try to shun away from all distractions and study Study STUDY!!...

I hate it when people say that i lie when i didnt... the last thing that i wana reali hear is anyone telling me that i am exactly like my dad...

I reali wish i could just shout out and cry my heart out now.... I am reali reali tired... I dont even wana go to school the next day... furthermore even see Mr Gng's face...

Fear has reali reali made me so afraid, like i owe someone a living... It is like I have no life and no freedom like i used to... I am just an ordinary student... I dont like everyone to see me as "THE HEAD PREFECT"... Give me a break would you?... it is tiring enough to even be a good example... And i honestly can tell you that i am not some "GOOD EXAMPLE" that you should follow...

Why follow me or even look up to me when men are imperfect?

You wan the best EXAMPLE TO FOLLOW?... JESUS is the only one... He is Perfect and blameless and does not ever forget, but He LOVES!!....

dont ever ever say i am good until you compare me with Jesus Christ my Lord and Saviour...

My mission: Never Gaining the Acceptance of Men...

I dont need it and i will never need it... because my reward is in Heaven, and till He calls me home, i will not take any praises from any man... I may be charismatic or good at speaking and influencing... by rmb that everything in me comes from the Father Alone...

My strength is in Him... For I am His and He is mine....

Prefect's meeting just over!! HEEHEE!!

2009-07-24T20:44:00.000-07:00

I look so different CAN!! so noob-.-

Finally the part of the struggle of my days have passed... GM IS OVER!!

That is really the best relief of my life:) heehee!! anyway, God is good and we did have some fun at the end of the meeting:)

I pray that God will see the whole prefectorial Board and just reali watch over the excos as we plan for things ahead... :D

I believe prayer is all we ever need:) seriously, i felt so calm and excited for the meeting, not nervous, not shaken.... but just... UNSHAKABLE!! HEEHEE^^

okie... have to go off le:)

Muacks muacks!!

Ah-the-belle

*Smileys* :)

~~~ I CAN REALI do all things through CHRIST who is and will strengthen me:)

June Holidays are OVER!!

2009-06-27T08:11:00.000-07:00

We once said... "SEE YOU SOON!"
but now we have to say... "OH IT'S YOU AGAIN!! (OH JOY!!)"

HAHA!! just kidding... i think we'll be super happy to meet each other again lo!! haha!!

REally really excited to see you guys alive and well in school again!! Hope you peeps didnt get the flu:P

Honestly, i am really looking forward to more studying... "prefecting"... and "frendsing" haahaa!! Oh man!! 2 more days!! i cant wait... though i wish that the holidaes were extended... cause i very nua now... i also reali reali wana see u peeps again man!!

okieokie... better not stress you up le:P

Btw... I'm from RiverLife Church and I'm FINE!! No worries... i am ANTI-VIRUS... heeeheeee...

Goodnitex :O

Joelle
*Smileys*
~~~ I CAN do all things through CHRIST who strengthens me!! ~~~

HAHA!! It's been a long time!!

2009-06-15T07:56:00.000-07:00

Hey people !!

It's been such a long time that i have posted something:) welll... life of holidays is kinda almost boring... but very different this year...:)

I took up an experiencing job... by tutoring poeple i know who needed help in math:) It seemed quite fun and and very experiential! ahaahah... anyway...

This week is MISSIONS WEEK and most of Hai Sing Cell went back to help out to sort clothings and back them neatly to be shipped to India:) YES!! For the DALITS!!:)
ehhehh... not easy lei:)

Anyway... yupp yupp!! it was fun and exciting and we all had fun...

during lunch... we were all given a load of rice... almost double the portion you mostly eat... hAHA!! in the end we played "zong ji mi ma" to clear all the food... Cavell suggested it and Cavell ate it all !! haha!! He so sway lo!! Twice in the role he got caught la!! He stupid wild guesses:) for me... i just learn how to "cut-half":P

Heehee!! all in all... i'm looking forward to the Hai Sing Cell 2 outing this wed haah!! more posting to come:P SEE YA PEEPS!!

By the Grace of God
Joelle
*Smileys*
@@@ I CAN do all things thru CHRIST who Strengthens ME!!@@@

Type of GUYS that i hate the most

2009-06-09T03:11:00.000-07:00

I was giving tutoring today to Audrea... a very very superbly cute primary 5 girl!! heehee!!

everything was great, we sat beside this 2 guys that were being told off by her mother to give us the seat... hahah... well, that helped!~!

Anyway, we were still continuing to study when another table further into the cafe was just empty. Apparently the guy who was facing me wanted to change his seat while his friend didn't wan2... then he started finding excuses to move...

He said, "Dont you find it noisy around here?
"Well, at least there is light here right?" His friend replied.
"You can't have both light and no noise... look" while pointing towards my direction and the table beside us.
"Well okie... let's move"

OH MY GOSH!! I'm telling you, though he looks a whole lot better than many guys i know, but his attitude sure RICKS!! I cant believe that we bould say such a thing with his super indirect tone and action can!! WaPiang@@! I never knew that there were really such guys present in this world... I though it was only in the drama serials!!

@~@...faint...@~@

Now i reali have got the worst of man!! Who knows... you'll see more such freaking attitudes in time to come... Oh i stared hard at him... shot my eyes... and spoke in my heart... GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE!!

I knw that it is very bad that i stereotype him and stuff, but i guess a forgiving heart still needs time to forgive... you know... i'm not the perfet God right?

Hais... well
GOD SURE BLESSES HIM!!

SENTOSA

2009-05-17T01:23:00.000-07:00

Finally the exams are over and there was a cell outing... not as haising 1 or 2... but as a whole... we went to Palawan Beach and had the greatest fun there!! not only that.... there are 2 photos that i reali treasure... one with my best fren and leader... RENEE PHEE and the other whom i reali envy and give my pride to ... ABBY!!

They have really made an impact in my life and i reali treasure these friends i have... there are more pics to come on the way... so no worries...

i treasure all you friends out there and am glad that God has placed you in my life...

i may take sometime to treasure some others out there... but reali deep in my heart i knw that i am sorrie if ever i STEREOTYPE you !!!

PS: I LOVE YOU!!

By the Grace of God

*Smileys*

MuackS!!

TOUGH WEEKS>>>

2009-03-31T01:10:00.001-07:00

This few weeks have been busy and crazy...

thats the reason why i did not blog.. anyway...

There is this beautiful song that i found... It is called REACHING FOR YOU by Hillsongs from the album For This Cause...

The Lyrics goes like this:

I cant believe the way Your Love has got a hold on me

Each morning i wake to find You near

You lift me above my fears and set my feet on solid ground

All of my days belong to You

And I breath in Your breathe of life that feels my heart

You are my all consuming fire

I stand here before You in wide opened wonder
Amazed at the Glory of You
The Power of Heaven
Revealing Your Purpose in me
As I'm reaching for You

I reali pray that God is with me in this very moment

DEBATE IS DIFFICULT!!

2009-03-05T00:51:00.000-08:00

Today, miss tan met us during the recess period to give us some on the spot practice... 30s to think about everything and get used to your points and say everything out when Miss Tan points you out.... Everything is fun and great... but stressful!!

Because we lost in the second competition during the selections... we have decided to push tgt as a group... and I think that i'll start to step up to rebutal or maybe something better like become the pro in the 1st speaker:P I dont know HAHA!!

I reali pray that we'll do well

next week is the competition and we'll be getting the motion this friday... I pray we'll do much better... hais.... and something worst is that I am going to have my theory exam on the next saturday and I'm not prepared in so many things!! HELO I need help!! anybody? I knew that i'm never ready for anything... hais...

God will u be there for me?

*Smiles*

YOU CAMP!!

2009-02-22T03:51:00.000-08:00

Last Year, I went to this SUPER AWESOME CAMP!! It is called YOU CAMP!! This camp realli is all about The Church and GOD:) It was fantastic haha!! and here are come photos!! See whether you can Spot some of the Hai Sing People:)

Booklet Designed by one and only

ERNIE SONG:)
COOL JACKET!! The first ever pull over-
that costs $25--
for all the Megalife Camps!!

KAMARAD AMIGOES!! This are my team people:) Wondering what is on my face... haha well...

Cotton Wool

Tomato Sauce and

Floor...

All thanks to CAMP COMM!!

This is our group when we are "dry" and "clean":) heehee!! GOT BATH LA:)

JOn SIow...

Marie...

Eileen LiM...

Claudelia...

TiMotHy...

JeaNeTte

EtheL

RacHaeL

KiMmI

This is the whole group of KAMARAD!!

SamanTHa SeAH

MaE

BeNedicT

VeRA

TeNG hUA

jeReMy

kENneTh
yiREN

a little dark here... but still can see

bEN leOw

jETHrO

cLArIsSA

jOY

sHErMaN

eDreA

zhEnG xiN

jESse

joEL

jOshUA nG

mAGDALEnE

tHE tWiNs!!

JOSHUA KOH!!!!!!

JASON LEE HONG MIN!!!( a little blocked:p)

cORin

jAmEs

DAO HONG!!!!!

mATtHEw hAN

jASpER

eIThER hanNAH OR tAMmY

bENtoN

cHErLYN

biG jASON!!!

vANEsSa

sAMUel koNG

bARRAck

LiTtLE CutE UsHER aT ThE sIDe

aMbeRLy... she's gonna migrate soon... i'm her first friend in church she ever had... I will miss her as she goes back to America:( I will CRY!!

joY nG

uNcLE rANdoLF

jAY

eITHeR jESsIcA/ rEBEcCA

pErSIs

AliSA

this group... scroll down for namess...

dANiEL tAN

aBigAIL cHAnG

wINnIE

rYAN cHEw (AH cHEW)

jINg xiANG

kiKO!!

i WIsh that many of you guys are there to have fun with us... people like WeiLiang... CaVell... ReNne... We had the greatest times...////

THANK YOU CHRISTABEL LAU HUI ZHEN!! ( CAMP COMM!!)

Marina Barrage is just the thing

2009-02-10T00:52:00.000-08:00

The bridge... HOHO!!

top view of the barrage

Different angle:)

I'm standing on the bridge and I took a view that I thought was beautiful:) HEEHHEE!!

Cool water under the hot sun...

My mum, aunty and her friend... ALL THE 3 pinks!! OH MY!! Not the pink UNIFORM!!

Different angle of the City

Marina walkway up... +++ city view

Fountain of the Barrage from the top:)

Families together flying kites:)

I believe you guys would like to see the city of Singapore for free...

No it is not the Singapore Flyer that will answer your request... cause it is too ex... and too fragile... break down too easilie:P

heehee!! it is none other than the Marina Barrage...

HAHA!! For my new penpals.... if you are reading this, I would realli like to deicate this to you!! Aunty Vivien.... this includes you!!

I believe that we have to thank God for this beautiful view that He has created... oh my!! I'm gonna be addicted to putting pictures on my blog!!

I miss those moments...

2009-02-10T00:49:00.000-08:00

I once had this friend that I always appreciated and I took her for granted at most times...

I see the joy when I was with her and I could realli feel her friendliness...

Apparently, quarrels tore us apart and I wish that that moment wouldn't come, where I had to part with her... I rmb the time both of us smiled together:)

Edwin's Bday party

2009-02-01T04:53:00.000-08:00

It occured at the Changi Safra... a resort rather...

It reminded me of Club Med... :P anyway, it was just big, cool and super fantastic!!

His bungalow was a rental of $400 per night... used to be $800!!

And then he had buffet and an Ice Cream CAKE!!

I never had one:( I didnt even have one for my 14th birthday... So sad... Everybody only remembered FIFI's bday... and also my worship band didn't even do anything for me... Cell... Well, not realli a big one, but i appreciate the effort...

But there is one thing that I know, God celebrates everyday as my birthday, because everyday I grow Spiritually Mature and get to know Him more and understand His Word more....

I have been very inspired to carry on my reading the Bible thing... I can't wait to read more!!

Anyone wants to join me:P HAHA!!

Anyways, sorrows aside, I Still Love my friends though I have disagreements with them at times.... I realli Love them... God has placed them in my life as an impact and they have moved me:)

I pray that I will carry the JOY and pass it on to you... You who are reading this...

My heart felt desire is to take the effort to know you more and make tis relatioship/ friendship a memorable one...

LOVES & HEARTS
Joelle
*Smiles* because I have the Joy of the Lord

Chinese New Year

2009-01-29T21:06:00.001-08:00

This people are just the cutest!!

Your life is no mistake... but i think actions are mistakes

2009-01-19T23:38:00.000-08:00

Apparently, i took out my phone in class to sms mum... and guess what?!

Yes!! You have it... my phone has been confiscated... but i think that Miss J. Lee is very good and she realli gives chances...

Well, as for me... she gave me alot of chance...

She told me that I could take a few numbers from my phone and i took Prince Charming's and Clive's... i realli hope that she wont look into my phone and check my smses...

I realli pray for the LORD's Protection now... I have no PC, but.... It is confiscated for 3 days...

Well... i can live without my phone, but unable to live without my God...

well i am wrong and deserve to get a punishment... still there is justice in this world and God is a just God, if there is a need to be punished... then so be it...

But please dont see my messages!!

Good Bye my LOVE...

2009-01-18T02:18:00.001-08:00

Why is everybody migrating? .... and esp one country.... TO AUSTRALIA...
Today... We had a farewell party for David Chan... So sad.. just because he wants to further his studies in the medical field... Even his brother has to go...

However, he will be back for his NS, just like Wei Xiang will be:)

We cried, we laughed and we cried again... but most of all, we had fun and we expressed the way of how much we will miss him...

Another person that is going over is Aunty Vivian!! I will realli miss her... She has seen me grown ever since I was young and she is very close to us... Going out and having meals and movies and even KTV, etc with her

Today mum went to church together with some of the cell members and made a thank you speech to her and also video recorded somethings...

And also, another news... I'M PROMOTED to a senior prefect!! I'm going to shadow Jasmine
Chung around tmr and I will also see the way she works... I realli want to see the main reason why she is disorganized and not able to oversee most of the things at most times...

However, I also feel that the seniors can at least listen to us for one moment, not just to talk and not listen... To lead is also to follow....

But for me, that phrase to me means that to lead the people is to follow the Ways of God... I'm telling you... I will be totally lost without God.... Clive says that he has not seen so much hope for the Prefectorial Board until Cherly's batch... But I think that I am the HOPE, because I have the LORD with me... I am the Light and the Salt of this World and I believe that I will not let God down... He will make a way for me and He has a destiney in me that is found in my BIBLE... And I will make an effort to alway read is at night despite how tired I am and I will sing unto the LORD for He is good and His Love endures forever...

I believe that God has a plan and a future for me that will prosper me and He will show me that He is forever faithful... I believe that He has a future for you as well... and He has plans to prosper you and not to let you down and see you fail... Are you willing to take on this path?

every hurt that you are going through now is all about God and His plans for you... It is to mould your attitude, character and the Faith of Him... Do you trust in Him...

If you are a Christian: SAVE ONE MORE FOR CHRIST...
If you are NOT a Christian: TAKE ON THIS CHALLENGE IN LIFE...

I did not say that a Christian life will be very easy, but you hve something to rely on, and that is GOD!!

Tiring OUT!!

2009-01-07T01:39:00.000-08:00

It's been 3 days of sec1 orientation and 1 full day of studying... And I tell you that I am superduper tired... There was campfire for the sec1 ytd and I believe that most of them did have fun.

I can realli see that God has been working with my life and I believe that I can draw many closer to Him....

I believe I was quite fierce in the hall tis morn... but I was also quite gentle... I could reali feel that God has changed my life into one that is not so hot tempered... And as I pray and seek God through the Bible, I could reali understand God's character more... I am also able to be more open to continuous learning and I realli Want to SAVE ONE MORE FOR CHRIST...

And i found out that my gift maynot be leading people into a time of word or the cell group, but it is to write songs and realli use my voice and my talents to GLORIFY Him...

I have learnt to acknowledge that in my life in the this World, I have to be different to show people that my God is the real God and He SAVES!!

The First Day of School

2009-01-02T02:51:00.000-08:00

Today is the first day of school and I feel realli tired already

I'm in class 3e3 and my form teacher is Miss Suhaila:)

I heard that Miss Milicent Chua is going to be my physics teacher... I believe that she will put her heart and soul into teaching us... anyway, she is fun exciting and sometimes she gets crazy... Maybe it is up till now that i understand about her teaching techniques...And I will make the effort to do research and learn more and not stop there....

Today's Sec1 Orientation was kinda cool... I'm taking Class 1n1 with Jasmine Tan, Hao Wen and Zaherial... HaHa... I tot they were quite cool... until this boy started to call me "Teacher" and names and he started going roundy.... And Then Came the SUGAR RUSH after drinking Kikapoo!!

He was so noisy in the hall!! Everybody was starring at him...!! And us 4 as well as we try our best to control him... By the end of the day, we managed to make everybody a little more enthu as to ask them to give the loudest scream before they can go off...!!

HAHA... Succeeded, but i still cannot stand that little boy!! I nicknamed him.... AH BOY, just like my uncle who is spoilt:P

Well... I guess that's mostly for all... Monday will be worst!! and as well as Tuesday!!

Happy New Year Everyone!!

2008-12-31T21:00:00.000-08:00

Today is the first day of the whole year... And I realli wanto wish all my readers friends and family out there a Joyous Happy New Year...

A New year... new circumstances... new stand.... new revelation!!

This is the one thing that I want to tell everybody that you are no mistake... I will not share the Gospel with you if you dont wan... But it is not my fault when GOD CALLS YOU!! Just like He did to Paul the Apostle when he used to kill Christians as his "duty"....

May the joy, peace and love of your be renewed and ever-changing as you step into a whole new era... Do well in work and studies as welll.... Enjoy the time that you have on Earth!!

Love
Joelle
*Smiles*

Megalife Camp!!

2008-12-05T01:27:00.000-08:00

MLife Camp is coming up, and i know that it is going to be a blast...

Sorrie WX, ur mlife camp was nt wat u thot it had been last year...

This year, i cant wait to go back to God once more and thrist and hunger for Him...

However, i am a little disappointed with the timing of the camp... How can camp days start on the Sunday morning? Usual for most families, Sunday is when the family spent time with each other and also for many volunteers in the Superlife Ministry... Imagine how many people are not able to serve and how short handed the teachers are.... Also, the Worship Band and the Welcoming Ministry and the Teaching Ministry?

The teachers are really going to have a tough time with the kids...

Talking about kids, i am going to step down as a teacher/ volunteer/ helper/ whatever you call me... Aunty Julia has alreadi been able to call someone called Andrew to volunteer. He started last week... I can tell that he seems quite unable to adapt, but i believe he will. Andrew will be taking over my duties, i guess...

I have contributed alot to the Ushering Ministry and now i am going to pass on my role as one of the leaders to Daphane... She is a Secondary 5 student from Hai Sing!! WOW!! I have also passed on my duties to her and taught her which column of tags to take out and other stuff... I feel so wierd teaching someone who is older than me...

I have decided to dedicate my time and ministry into the Worship Ministry by the end of December and i believe that i will be able to grow well in the Lord through that Ministry...

God has put all my envy aside already and i realli Love to Thank Him for that peace in my heart that he has given to me...

My hope Singapore is coming soon and i hope that my group and i can do well in reaching out to our other friends.... So Far in our cell: 1 salvation, 1 rededication and 2 interested to know... What a wonderful praise report!!

God is Good all the time and all the time God is Good

I realised what is childishness

2008-11-26T16:05:00.000-08:00

Talking bad about people and repeating those few words over and over again makes people feel sick.

Once you have said that you dont like somebody, you can just keep quiet, because everybody knows already, you can tell others about how that person has made you so mad, but you dont have to say it so loud in front of that person you dont like...

Look, if you know who i am pointing to, please tell that person to listen up k?

An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth is not the correct way of doing what you think is right. One mistake cannot be covered with an other, just like a gutter with another gutter.

Learn alright... This happened yesterday, i hope you are reading this... I walked away with a blackface yesterday, I'm alright now... but i need you to know k?:)

Smilies:)

My Jealousy issue is killing me!!

2008-11-24T01:03:00.000-08:00

Hey, have you ever felt jealous before.... Well, i am feeling a whole lot of jealousy now...

There are many people i am jealous of, i cant hardly even name all.... but i am going to name some major ones now...

Number 1: Abigail Chang...
Hey girl, you make people smile, but not me... Hard to face it but i feel lyk you are avoiding me! Fine if you dnt lyk my attitude or not, but when i say hi to you, can you at least reply? (Continue on the last paragraph)

Number 2: Wei Liang
Hey guy!! I know that you really wan2 make things work and i believe that you really have the potential to stand out, but can you give me some space to have a stand as well... MHS is a big event, i know, but this is my house, can you respect a little while... I know you are the leader, but that doesnt mean that you can just take away my plans for the timing of the MHS... (Continue on the last paragraph)

Number 3: Worship team
Hey People! I know that you feel that sometimes im a loner or just irritating... It is really fine that you guys can have fun... But if you are reading this, i want you to know that i want to be apart of you guys and girls too! I have to have fun sometimes too! (continue on the last paragraph)

This are mostly the probs that i have... But i really want to tell you that you guys are still my best buds... I tink I am an attention seeker.... Sometimes, would you give me some... Or even let me go? You guys know when to de what:) Maybe having PMS now that's why feeling this way, but i dont wan to lose another fren again... Pls help by giving me some time to cool. I reali still love you guys!! Every single one of you...

POSTS!!

2008-11-24T00:58:00.000-08:00

Sorrie, unable to post these few weeks...

I have been in many places these few days, China, Malacca... Man!! I'm tired!

Still, there is homework, which i dnt tink any body wans during the holis....

I dnt wan to get fat again!! Last June i grew!! 2 kg!! :( Oh Shoots!!

My family... sTill the same... I dont know whether it is my PMS or not, but i tink i miss my dad for once in my life!! I nv tot tat i would feel that way

Also... my blog is like so red, but im lazy to change skin... anyone care to help me change:)

I miss the old joyous me... The thing is that i get jealous easily... I feel left out i guess...

Orang Asli

2008-11-21T01:16:00.000-08:00

Some of you people may know that i went to missions trip, some may not know, but let me share what i saw there.
The people there are very poor, some dont even have electricity! They cant even do their work in the dark! They cant even bathe at times!
Eww... You must be thinking... But no, once you reach there you cant even think about what you can do for them, but you will compair yourselve with them.

Example: When you are sick, you go to the doctor and get medicine and get yourself cured.
However for them, they have no choice but to let nature take its own cost. They will wait for that person to recover.

If you have a sore throat, you will drink as much water to keep your throat wet and painless right? or you take a lozenges and suck it, but for them, their water is not even clean, talking about not having a lozenges...

Let me tell you something, dont take things for granted or just think that God is not working in Your Life, but seriously He is... He is working in minor ways that you cant see it and you take things for granted... Everyday you have 3 meals, but their only meal is dinner.

Im not asking you to donate anything to them or do something really big for these people, why not you just bless them with a prayer at night... Also, go on mission trips to bless them. You dont have to feel prepared to go, just follow the will of God and obey... He will guide you and show you the way!! trust me!!:)

EXAMS!!

2008-10-02T01:15:00.000-07:00

Hey people, i know it is a bit too late my CHIONG!! dont give up k?
Hey any reader out there who finds that i am extra or knows friends that think that i am "WHATEVA LA SHE>> SO WHAT!!!" Then help me to remind urself and others that SO WHAT?! I dont have to be perfect in your eyes!! Man's eyes are eyes full of evil and wrongs... Those eyes are just like Yours and Mine!! Everybody lied more than even a thousand times and are not perfect aren't they!! Just help me remind them that though they or you are not perfect in my eyes, BUT that doesn't mean that You or They are not perfect in GOD's EYES:)

Smiles everyone!!

MUGGING MUGGING!!:)

JIA YOU KAES?

btw, FERRARI boss, if your team did not do well in the F1 night race in Singapore, dont be a sour grape, just accept the fact that you lost... there is always a next time right? If F.Alonso and Hamilton can do it, why cant you? Dont fred over that... Nice commenting you:)

Screwed Up TodaY!!

2008-09-23T08:03:00.000-07:00

Man!! I have never felt so embarrassed, but it's okiee... I managed to take my cools...

Today i did the pledge taking in the morning and guess what!! I zaosia!! man my voice like broke la!! Say pledge half way then stuttle here and there and everywhere!! almost gonner!!

My friends also noticed me!! ARH!! So embarrassing!!

But nvm... Very Fine... Still can show face tmr:P HAHA!!

This is the Result of Forgiveness

2008-09-07T03:09:00.000-07:00

Hey people... I know it is very difficult to forgive others at times, but sometimes you cant just let the past go...

You know what... forgive and love... this is the thing that i have learnt alot this year and it will always be in my heart now and forever more.... Of Course dont take advantage of it la>>>>!!!!

This recent prefect's camp, PC comm was much bonded... as well as we are to other prefects of different comm..

And you know Maria? Well, yes you guessed it!! We TALKED!! isn't that great!! HAHA im realli realli so super happy:)

REalli... i have learnt to love my 'enemy' more:)

And you guys know the song HEALER, that i put on my post some time ago?

Well you know that guy is a fake... it is not true that he has cancer or whatsoeva...

but this time im gonna tell you something different that we all FORGIVE him... He just told the press one day that he does not realli have cancer in Australia and now the word is spreading....

Yes, though he is a let down to the Chrisians... but one sin does not cover the other... he has lied about that for the song.... and his so called 'inspiration' but we have to know that unforgiveness is also a sin... so Mike Guglielmucci.... Riverlife Church and Megalife (youth service) in Singapore, forgives you!! It's okie... thank you for speaking the truth... bt try to gain our trust back k?

Happy Anniversarie RIVERLIFE CHURCH!!

2008-08-17T07:15:00.000-07:00

Today i went to church to celebrate the 17th Anniversarie of Riverlife Church and we were able to share each others language and age level...
From the Superlife Ministry (Children), to the Megalifers, Highlifers and Onelifers (Teenagers), to English Adults (Adults la... :P) , to the Philipino Ministry (mostly maids) and then to the Chinese congregation (chinese speaking people, most of them are very old)

We were reminded that we must learn from each other... Even from your parents, Because...
WE ARE FAMILY!!
From the Wisdom of the OLD and Passion of the YOUNG!!

Acutally, the real anniversarie is tmr... 18th of August... But nvm... as long as we celebrate... it was great!!

Hey you know what!! the cake that was bought.... Was about 3 to 4 times bigger than your FACE

HAHA... i didnt manage to get a share as I came down too late and i also nid to lose wait:P

HAHA!! FAt oreadi!!

Anyway... I have bio test and chinese test tmr so... tt:)

Love you readers out there!!

Love
Joelle
*Smiles*

Salvation is Here!!

2008-08-17T07:05:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, it was Someone's second birthday:)
Im not going to name him... but... Happy birthday!!
He has made a decision, though away from his parents, but he managed to stand firm in his decision in accepting Christ:)

Hey God-bro and Brother-in-Christ, I am so happy to cya making your own decision...

Stand firm on your ground and do not fall, because you have the support of the Lord...
there is a song that goes:
Christ is the solid rock I stand
All others are sinking sand
All others are sinking sand....

I believe that you must be the Light of the World, to your family... It all starts with you...

I also believe that God can see your passion in Him and he sees that you treaure him:)

Love Him in all your ways of difficulty and failure...

You have the Word of God with you... Dont let M**** bring you down... use the Word to fight her back:)

The Word of God is a living testimony and you know that it is true:)

God Loves you and treasures You:)

For the others who want to know more about what i am talking about:) Come chat with me... I'm totally open:)

Love
Joelle
*Smiles*

Hooray!!

2008-08-11T01:03:00.000-07:00

Hey people!!

I've finallt got my music on the blog going on:)

HAHA!! Hey those rock music people out there, if you really like Electirc guitars and even an example of bands... I advise you to listen to Break Free and Majesty:) HAHA

Love you peops out there:)

I have a new favourite Song....

2008-08-10T23:46:00.000-07:00

This song's name is Healer... It is great and i have been very touched by it....

The Singer of this song has a Cancer and he has live passed his 'date-line' for almost a month and he even managed to sing... Having lung cancer, he sang that God is a Healer of all pain and worries, and so he put faith in God and he sang this in the Hillsong Concert....

This song was also live recorded from the Concert itself and so, there are cheerings of audiences all over....

This is the lyrics:
You hold my every moment
You calm my raging sea
You walk with me through fire
And healed all my disease
I trust in You (2 times)

I believe You're my healer
I believe You are all need
I believe You're my portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus, Your all I need

Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my World in Your Hands

Sound of the Instrument of The LORD

2008-08-10T07:28:00.000-07:00

Today, Kenneth introduced to the Superlife Kids a new song... This song was written by a P1 girl and she has created a song as a love poem for God and Kenneth, together with Benjamin Lee, added the rhythm into the that...

The Song goes like this:

My Love for God
Is deeper than the oceans
And higher than the mountains

My Love for Him
Will never change
I will obey his commands and laws

I thank Him for dying on the Cross for my Sins
I love him and I believe that He is
The Greatest gift of all...

This is the most beautiful song that i have ever heard in my whole life... This song has impacted me as it showed me that no matter how old you are, God can still use you...

Do you want to me an insturment of the Lord?

Tell you the truth, why shouldn't you want to be... The ability to write songs and compose songs... Music is in your hands... You are writing and creating healthy music that praises the Lord's name and this is what you were made to do...

At around 9plus this morning, i met a new friend, her name is Dorothea and she is Secondary 1, she is from Central 3 cell and she is perminently helping in Superlife and i plan to put her in the Welcoming Ministry by the end of this August...

I can't wait to pass everything on to her... It is just so coincidential that we needed an extra person, and so Magdalene Lim can grow in her Ministry of the Sound/ Technical Crew:)

Thank God that He has made such a wonderful plan:)

You see... God knows what difficulties you are in and He will send help on the way... It is just that... are you willing to take the offer?

++MY STRESS++

2008-08-05T01:51:00.000-07:00

A Few nights ago... I wasn't able to sleep and i had tears all over my face...
No, it is not that i have PMS, but i was stress... With all the revision that i needed to do to fulfill all the wanted results and also because of the issue of the previous post, i really was depressed and i did not say much. Renne is right, i should have thought about what would Jesus do...
God has always been the example i live by and should be like him, though i am not perfect, but i can try...

UR personality must be right in order to keep your mind right... Yes, God has died on the cross for us and he has forgiven us. Yes, now we are free to sin, that is why you are eating crab for expensive dinners. God has showed us that we are all sinners yes, but that doesn;t mean that we should never ask for forgiveness rite?

It is like your mother saying, hey child, i love you because you are my child and i will not beat you or say anything that will hurt you, because you are mine. no matter how many wrong things you do, i will still forgive you. But does that mean that you can smoke at the age of 12? NO!! NEVER!! the law is the law, how ur parents are going to treat you no matter if they are away or of a further distance is another thing...

If you have broken the commandments, it is like breaking the law... If you have killed someone, you say that God, you have forgiven we, so i am forgiven and free to sin, but rmb that you stil have to face the earthly punishment. Not only that, but you will be judged. When you past away, God is going to show you and tell you what you have done... You cannot escape from that... so if God has forgiven, why must you stop doing the wrong things?

Well, do you want to face judgement? I'm sure you dont. God can be gracious, so can ur parents, but once you climb over His Head, you are nothing but a crushed cockroach:P Same goes for your parents...

I have learnt to not take things for granted, and that was my mistake that made me so stress... During that period, all i could turn to were my books, i couldnt understand the BIBLE and didnt even bother to say a simple prayer. I was lost, but now am found. I was Blind, but nw i see.

I hope that many of you readers there can understand how i feel. Learn from my mistakes... dnt repeat them.... God is here for you... Tell Him how you feel:)

Is Love Blind or what?

2008-07-16T07:12:00.000-07:00

Dear REaders,

This is something that i need to tell someone about the hatred in me... i reali dont like someone and i reali need to say something...

There is someone in the prefectorial board that i dont like and that person is from the Sec 1s...

It seems that she likes my God-bro and apparently, when she confesed to him, he had a girlfren and she knew it...
She was so ignorant and i decided to talk to my God-bro that he should stop talking to her for a while and set his priority right, his girlfren or that B****...

Stupid him told that B**** and gt me into trouble, telling her that i was the one that asked him to stay away from her....

she kept asking me why and i explained to her and do you know what she said about me to my Godbro?... Im naggy!!

Man!! she is a S** of a B****...

Nvm... the next day, Godbro told me that he wants to stay single and no more relatioships, just like me, so a few days later, he broke up with his GF...

I stood for him, saying that he should focus on his studies, but he didnt listen...

Not long later, he told me that he cant put tat B**** away from his mind... so i made it clear to him that he should look at his life....

On SAturday, i invited him to the Nubian Gents concert.... after the concert, we went back together, when i saw him texting nonstop

later he then told me that B**** scolded him for not telling her tat he went out with me!!

She is worst then my mother!!

That is why it is said... Love is Blind...

and i found out that she also told more than 5 people to fF*** off and didnt respect the seniors...

How Irritating!!

Nubian Gent's Performance!!

2008-07-16T07:05:00.000-07:00

Hey People!!

Rmb Nubian Gents?

To tell you the truth... they rawk...

you shoulg have seen them do their thing!! Man, it was like nothing that you have ever since, because they are doing everything for God and they are inspired by God... God has given them the inspiration, that is why they are doing so well...

Also, in their team, there was a 14 year old girl... Man she sings even better than Taufik or Hardy or any of the idols...

She has a pure and clear voice and the best thing is that she has dedicated her life for God and decided to travel around with the team...

Not only that!! Their leader is a teacher and he is the best teacher that teaches them Subjects adn how to Sing and Dance, and that is how they have met each other, making a team in the end.

They have been travelling around the World for Evangilism for more than 10 years... Totally devoted to God... and i thank God that he has given them to come to Megalife and share with us this special thing..

NUBIAN GENTS- MEGALIFE!!

2008-06-30T07:48:00.000-07:00

Hey NUBIAN GENTS are coming to town again!!
The previous time that they came, they made an extreme blast and made most of us jump off our seats...

Well, this is no roller coaster, but a Ride you Your Life, for a decision Whether you are on, on going...

Talk to mee, if you are interested!!

Open arms here!!

Love,
Joelle
*Smiles*

Sing.. Sing... Sing

2008-06-30T07:39:00.000-07:00

I love to Sing...
It just makes me feel so free...
Hey!! do you knw what songs i like? Well they are

Break Free
Free
Running after You
Salvation is Here
Majesty (Planet Skakers); &
Xin Bu Liao Qin!!!

I reali love those...

You may not know most of them, but its okay, cause i can tell you that many of my frens dnt knw too!!

Haha!!

Signing off...

*Smiles*

Hays... Im Back!!

2008-06-30T04:16:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time since i have blogged and wrote something 'meaningful':)
haha!!

Apparently, there seems to be a quarrel and misunderstanding between my group of 8 girls...
Name them? Well, I dont wan, but most u people out there readinkg my blog wil know...

Haix... Let's Call Person A, B, C till Z if there are so many:P

(A) had her birthday is December and we BCDEFGH did not manage to celebrate her birthday...

(A) therefore wanted at least a present... and so asked all of us BCDEFGH to give her an expense of $5 to buy her own present...

(B) has already given her share and was quite from then on...

But sadly, (A) forgot that she had given and was disappointed, and therefore told (B) in a harsher tone to give her the money...

(B) being upset yelled back at her and the whole situation goes wild...

Well, friends are like that... in and out... ups and downs... But you 2 must rmb that when that friendship is not easy to gain... you were once the greatest, dnt let tis situation bring you and the whole group down.

It is nt easy to apologise or even to say a simple sorry or even to fully forgive the person...
I will not take sides, because i do nt like to come bwt probs, just to be the peace maker...

I hope you 2 girls read tis...

I picked this out from the Bible, it reali applies to both of you Chio Buz....

Get the grouch when the Sun is up, but forget about it when the Sun is down... do not carry any burden that will bring you down, because the Lord has carried for you and you dnt have to depend on urself or your friends to forgive a person, but just turn to the Lord, tell Him all your worries... and when you are in an intimate relationship with Him, you can hear Him speak...

This is not telling you to forgive and forget... The Bible did not tell you to forgive and forget, but to forgive and love...

Love is caring and unfilling, it does not boast and does not forget...

If 2 of you continue like that, there is only one person that will be happy... No, not ur rival, bt Satan who will bring you to hate ur enemy more.

Do not hate but love, that is What You Are MADE To Do...

Back-stabbed AGAIN!!!

2008-05-19T01:58:00.000-07:00

Now this time is not from the same person that did to me earlier, that i have forgive, forget and loved her, just as Jesus did to the Sinners of this World.
i didnt believe it at first but it is so true!!
I know a friend that has been with me from 3 years-old!!!
in church about last year, i was introduced to a girl, a friend and is going thru everything lyk me!! she was great, bt i didnt seem to lyk her at 1st.
She had make up on and i was disturbed by what she did before when i still didnt like her(i will not mention here)... bt now, when she decided to sit with me in HS Cell, i could reali tell that she is serious in God and we even went to the same math tuition class, everything between us turned out great, bt this week.... there she went again...
Haix... bt she did repent, bt i was hit with questions when i tried to protect her from being scolded, cause i saw her praying till her eyes were red. she was panting and she was filled with guilt, i decided to cover for her, i believed her, cause she gained my trust in the previous week.
bt after tat, i was hit with another shocking news tat my "best-friend" has described me as a BITCH!! a betrayer and not trusyworthy to my new friend....
the common terms that i shared with my new best friend was the parent part... we both have parents that are going thru a motion that is totally nt pleasing and we hav an aunt that is supportive and ongoing.... i miss this friend that i have.... bt was disappointed that the words of my "best-friend" came from her mouth...

i wan2 protect u... u know it.... and Eileen, i know everything...

Could anybody tell me the purpose in my life?

2008-05-07T07:04:00.000-07:00

How can this be...
im feeling stress to max..... i am planning to quit Youth Ambassadors... but how...
Hai Sing Teachers.. if u are reading this can u pls approach to me right on the spot?
i reali nid help...
Sorrie Mr Surin, Miss Jye and Miss Fa... the whole team is unable to move on anymore
the expectations are too high...
the purpose in my life in to Glorify God, and not Man...
i believe tat im not up to the standard of being a Youth Ambassadors...
Cream of the Crowd.... among the Students... Man that's cool, but it reali is too much
Look at the expectations that u have given us.. as a team... nt just Andy, bt can u see how much effort he is putting in?
Being the Leader of the cream of the crowd is nt easy....
Leading us is obviously nt easi... Teachers i hope tat if u see this... u may approach me in peace...

Exams...

2008-04-29T01:30:00.000-07:00

Hey readers!!
Busi studying? feeling stressedout? well, let me give u a word of advice:)
Do not, i repeat... do nt compare with others, u will either make urself proud or feel worse as some of ur 'frens' may laugh at u...
take my advice, compete with urself, dnt look down or be upset that u may have scored lower than ur other friends... cause u know that u have done ur best....

After u have Prayed and asked for God's Will to be done in ur life, u must trust tat His Will has been done. Nt to make u fail, bt to lead u in the path that He has alreadi prepared u in... that doesnt mean that u should study for ur info:)

Pray, Believe that u have Received and u will receive it...

Migrating?

2008-04-28T06:19:00.000-07:00

Hey...
Iheard that u are migrating...
God's plan? If i were still with u... Will u bring me along too?
HAHA!! Just joking... im nt sure whether u are reading this or nt... which i hope u are... i wanto tell u that no matter the mistakes that we were, i will always be ur sister in Christ, send me any information about u in Pearl:)

I being a Youth Ambassador is going to subside, im planning to quit... should i?
Confuzeed.... Haix... Independent Ladies nt that Independent isnt it....

i being a love counselor will open my business again:P i will use the churches messages to serve u beloved people... sorrie, i veri bored:)

okay la... Jia You For Ur Exams though it may not affect u>>>
Still rmb that i will still miss u...
And Bu Yao EMO le.... Cheer Up...
In Christ, no matter where u are, u still belong in the Lord's Family Tree... hope to see u in Planet Shakers or Youth Alive...

Im remorseful...

Go Elephant

Hey Ive Got a New BF!!

2008-04-28T05:42:00.000-07:00

Hey there again:)
today, i found out that one of my closest friend/ sister has a boy fren which she had hid from he from dnt know how long... haix... U treat me as ur sis or not:( so disappointing:(
BTW!! After u have a new bf, so what?
Firstly: What is Love?
Love is patient, Love is Kind. Not only that but it is gentle, forgiving, unforgetting, unregretful... touching and must always be controlled.
Limit urself before u get a new bf... what is the next move? Holding of hands? Or smooching?
Well, nt to disgust my dear readers, but there is always a limitation...
dnt u ever ask urself: How much is too much?
dnt u innocent gurls who have gone on bed with ur bf find that it is too much?
once u lose it, HEY GURL!! there is no turning back. Sex is a desire, but it can be controlled.

one advise is to go straight to a Counselor to help urself be accountable for all ur every move with ur bf...
do u regret when u break up after a long long relationship... dnt u get sick of being in so many?
i do u know... one after another, just to feed my sole and my heart with the self satisfaction of having a guy to stand by me and protecting me... i love that feeling... everybody loves that, but Jesus once told a Samaritan women who had 7 husbands, "drink this water and u will never be thristy again" He means to be spiritually thristy...
i wanto drink that Spiritual water, so powerful and full of God's Sweet Love.

Nv be lyk me, one after another and another. crushes are okay and cool... but nt to the extend...
go to a counselor after u are in a relationship, that will help u to feel so secure in God's ways:)

Forgive and Forget

2008-04-27T02:47:00.000-07:00

Hey viewers...

i guess u have heard this idiom: an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth.

this phrase has always tempted me to hurt many of my frenx feelings.

REVENGE is all that we think about when we are out of a relationship, no matter u are dumped or u dumped the person.

in Surperlife today, i as a helper has to listen to the sermon to teach the kids too and dey went through the Lords Prayer:

Father in Heaven, Hallowed be Your Name. Your Kingdom come, Your will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. Forgive us of our sins, as we forgive those who have sinned against us. Lead us not into the temptation, but deliver us from the Evil One. For Thy is the Kingdom and the Power and the Glory, now and forever. Amen.

Long isnt it? But it is worth saying it and repeating it in my heart and even out loud at times when it comes to my time with the Lord.

The previous post about the anger thing... i dnt put that to heart. Also, past relationships, i thank the Lord that it ended with not death and disappointment, but HOPE. A hope to be frenx still and continue to talk to each other. though still feeling obliged, but better and more relaxing.

i have learnt that there is something more than just the front, but the back of a situation.

u learn in ur past relationships, mistakes, and watsoeva...

So people out there thinking of means and ways to get into a relationship, do one thing first...

RESPECT ur opposite party, lyk wat im doing now... staying down and lonely is not what u should do...

no one likes an emo person...

Cox... No body is perfect...

It's My Life

2008-04-13T21:06:00.000-07:00

I was nv expecting 2 get any bf 4 my entire teen days...
I have changed alt in terms of character since the recent years...
Showing the care and concern 4 my friends used to be my weak point, but now, i know that i am more hard hearted.... i nv wanted tis 2 happen, but i know that i am nt as u seem to be...
How i wish that i could turn back my time.

being busi is always a way for me to hide all my troubles, bt it seems that it is not working. i am so busi that i am not bothering myself.....

counting all my involvement, i have:

journalism
youth ambessador
info comm- video
prefects
studies
piano
2 tuition
church
ne ambassadors

i am not saying that those are nt good, but i do believe that i have something more than being so cramped up in my life....

I have a Purpose in Life... Do You Have?

~BeLLe eLLe *Smileys*~

I'm really missing you!

Hamielle

My song for you!

I Love you hubby!!

Another three months away from FB!

My prayer

My prayer

My prayer

So Close

REALLY REALLY LONG TIME...

Long time no post!! hahah!!

BACK FROM CAMP!!

My Ministry...

The memories of a Child

JEALOUSY KILLS

Every one was beautiful in every single way...

sometimes you ought to have a break....

My COMP CRASHED!!

Destiny will tell:)

I'm Sorrie Prefects!!

I am very very tired... LET ME STUDY!!

Prefect's meeting just over!! HEEHEE!!

June Holidays are OVER!!

HAHA!! It's been a long time!!

Type of GUYS that i hate the most

SENTOSA

TOUGH WEEKS>>>

DEBATE IS DIFFICULT!!

YOU CAMP!!

Marina Barrage is just the thing

I miss those moments...

Edwin's Bday party

Chinese New Year

Your life is no mistake... but i think actions are mistakes

Good Bye my LOVE...

Tiring OUT!!

The First Day of School

Happy New Year Everyone!!

Megalife Camp!!

I realised what is childishness

My Jealousy issue is killing me!!

POSTS!!

Orang Asli

EXAMS!!

Screwed Up TodaY!!

This is the Result of Forgiveness

Happy Anniversarie RIVERLIFE CHURCH!!

Salvation is Here!!

Hooray!!

I have a new favourite Song....

Sound of the Instrument of The LORD

++MY STRESS++

Is Love Blind or what?

Nubian Gent's Performance!!

NUBIAN GENTS- MEGALIFE!!

Sing.. Sing... Sing

Hays... Im Back!!

Back-stabbed AGAIN!!!

Could anybody tell me the purpose in my life?

Exams...

Migrating?

Hey Ive Got a New BF!!

Forgive and Forget

It's My Life

~BeLLe eLLe Smileys~