Thursday, November 26, 2009
You can lose everything that you can have... they could be taken away but there is one thing Apart from GOD IN YOUR HEART that you cannot take away... and those are memories...
yes you may end up in an accident and get STM and LTM (choy!!) but these memories are bound to come back to you someday and because i just realised this fact, i have decided to live a life and life to the fullest...
Yesterday i went to Shi Yun's house and before that i took a little stroll down Pasir ris Street 71 and went to my old house where i grew up... block 767... I couldn't recognise it at first but i realised that i love that place so much... because tat was where i had great memories....
Sorry la... really tempted to write what i remembered :P
1. Changing my dad's gear when he was driving
Oh man! that was so fun... and when he send me to my nanny's house when i was young i would watch how he changed his gear and i even remembered.... the same old method every single day... so there were many days i helped him to change the gear... and guess what... I WAS ONLY 5 YEARS OLD!! hahah!!!
2. Going to the play ground that i once loved!! ahaha!!
I walked the very footsteps i took around the nearby garden and the playground that i used to play in! I remember those monkey bars i used to play... hahah!! so so fun!!
3. KALANG GUNI- CHONG!!
That was wat my family used to call me... apparently... i kept everything and treasured everything!! haha!! and i promised you that i cried on the day of the SPRING CLEANING:P hahah!!
4. In the morning...
before i was sent to my nanny's house, my mother would prepare a cup of milk for me every morning on the coffee table... and because it was so earli... i would run to the living room, jump on to the sofa and sleep or watch tv!! hahah!! mum in the end always have to nag at me:P But i wonder where dad was... anyway...
5. prank on Grandma!!
i always remember that!! ahah... we were watching a ghost show the night before and we rang the bell so that she would open the door and get a shocked out of her life!! :P for us, we just hid at the nearby staircase and wait till she went in before we did it again!! hahahah!! SHE FREAKED OUT MAN!! I remembered that i could not control my laughter, so much till we got caught:P hehehe!! oopps!!
6. the drooling sensation!!
HAHAH!! i drool on anybody's shoulders!! mum, dad, aunty michelle, aunty ros.. hahah!!! anybody that carried me and i fell asleep yuppyupp!! hahah!!
7. ICE-CREAM-LAI(come in chinese)!!
we were walking along orchard road and it was warm... so i carried this super small umbrella that only convered me and i was on mum's shoulders... then she asked me if i wanted ice-cream and because it was so warm and i was so tired (yet didnt wana put the umbrella down)... I replied " ICE-CREAM-LAI" and i pratically stretched my hands out to the cart and waved my hand as though i was flagging a taxi... ahahah!! Mum was so embarrased... hahaha
And many many more embarrassing moments like rolling off the bed... and squating at the corner when i was punished... aiya... it was all trash... but memoriable:P hahah!!
All memoriess to a child seem so precious and well remembered... i believe that before i go forth and impact others, I myself need to be impacted first!! ^^
ALL FOR JESUS!!
Ah-The-Belle
*Smileys*
@@@I CAN do all things through CHRIST who'll Strengthen ME!!@@@
9:30 PM
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
JEALOUSY KILLS... your soul, your character and most of all your behaviour...
i've been so spoilt with all the things... attention, friends, family and even the very things that i wanted... but never did once did i realise that how much i needed something to belong to me belong to me...
i mean i share a father with some bloody siblings that i dont know... i do share some friends too and family members... i reali reali dont wan to share the things that i love with some body else... there are things that are mine and i dont like others to TOUCH... i know i sound like a spoilt brat and selfish with the things that i have around me... but its me!! i'm trying to change, but do you know how de bloody difficult it is to change...
i get reali reali jealous and that it the reason why my blackface come about... dont blame me if i get that feeling... it comes with my personality...
im a person who is full of pride and i like and love pride... i need my face and i cant believe that i was so willing to lose that face in the past... i dont reali share what i am going through w people nowadays.. i reali reali feel the pain and ache when i see otherrs in my position like IN A PICTURE or even IN MY POSITION!!
I dont know why im so sensitive nowadays... could be my PMS but solving this jealousy issue is so difficult.... GIVE ME TIME MAN!! i never had to experience this time of "healing and wholeness" and i reali know that the problem lies with me... hais...
@@@I CAN do all things Thru CHRIST who'll strengthen me!!@@@~i'm reali believing in it!!
2:17 AM
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Everyone was beautiful in every Single Way...
No matter how you look, the amount of make up you put or the dress that you wear... as long as you are confident that you are looking good... that is how you determine Your Beauty.
Beauty is in the eyes of the Beholder... You dont have or need people to come over to you to tell you how you look, whether you are pretty or you put too much make up... you know it yourself.... and for me... i believe that everyone was the smartest they were on Friday Night!!
Honestly, if you were to ask me who was the prettiest... i would say everyone was in every different way:)
Hey Hey... STOP JUDGING PEOPLE LA!! haiyo.... guyzzz...
8:33 PM
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
sometimes you ought to have a break...
i realli realli believe that i need a break.
A few days ago, someone confessed to me that he likes me.... and it is not only 1... but 3...
if i were me last time, i would say that i am spoilt for choices... i mean, who wouldnt wan 3 guys chasing after you and begging you to be with them... honestly, if you were a girl, you would reali reali love tat type of feeling... but im different now...
Obviously i am still a girll... a lady rather:P heehee!! but i just wan2 say that i am changed in e way tat i tink... i dont live by what i see and feel anymore... i live by faith... and that is one thing taht has brought me tis far... i dont reali reali lyk the feelin that guys are chasing after me anymore becos i would only give them false hope and i reali reali dont wan that to happen...
i dont wana destroy their future by asking them to wait for me... honestly, i was and am very very pissed off with the whole thing....
truly in my heart I have only one guy that i like.... but im not sure if he does.. have been very very close with him, having fun going to church and out at times... but im just plain blank about what is going to happen next... i guess i just have to wait for the future.. 18 yrs old!! :)
I dont know what God has planned for me, but i believe that it is going to be good!!
Well... Reali reali love you!! heehee!!
Muacks!
Joelle
*Smileys*
@@@I CAN do all things Thru CHRIST who'll Strengthen ME!!@@@
6:56 PM
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Now i'm using my aunties comp so to tell you... MY COMP REALI CRASHED!!
Hais. welll... considering the fact that the comp is alr about more than 4 years old... XP...
Anyway, i believe that during this time of without the com... God gave me the time to focus on Him, my dog and most of all, my music.
He has impressed on the SuperLife Worship Band that He is going to move the sanctuary and i believe that we have alreadi seen Him work in that place!! The children were beautiful, jumping and singing to the Lord from the top of their voices... ALL FOR CHRIST!!
Most of all.. i can tell you that the most beautiful angels are the Lord's Children, today i went to HLA to bedok green primary and i can tell you that there hasnt been a day that i appreciate children more. They were cute and enthu, but one thing they lack was the acknowledgement of the Love of CHRIST in them:(
Tell you smtg funnie!! AMZAR learnt that we should always cary our own tissue paper... cause you know wat happened?... He took a piece of tissue from some Primary 3 boy that he was incharge of and the boy started to... CRY!! haha!! we were totally making fun of him during the debrief lo...
Overall i just wanto say that i had a great time and thank leaders for tolerating me again!! too bossy.... i know...!!
Ah-the-belle
*Smileys*
~~~I CAN do all things thru CHRIST who'll strengthen me!!~~~
5:52 AM