Tuesday, November 24, 2009
JEALOUSY KILLS... your soul, your character and most of all your behaviour...
i've been so spoilt with all the things... attention, friends, family and even the very things that i wanted... but never did once did i realise that how much i needed something to belong to me belong to me...
i mean i share a father with some bloody siblings that i dont know... i do share some friends too and family members... i reali reali dont wan to share the things that i love with some body else... there are things that are mine and i dont like others to TOUCH... i know i sound like a spoilt brat and selfish with the things that i have around me... but its me!! i'm trying to change, but do you know how de bloody difficult it is to change...
i get reali reali jealous and that it the reason why my blackface come about... dont blame me if i get that feeling... it comes with my personality...
im a person who is full of pride and i like and love pride... i need my face and i cant believe that i was so willing to lose that face in the past... i dont reali share what i am going through w people nowadays.. i reali reali feel the pain and ache when i see otherrs in my position like IN A PICTURE or even IN MY POSITION!!
I dont know why im so sensitive nowadays... could be my PMS but solving this jealousy issue is so difficult.... GIVE ME TIME MAN!! i never had to experience this time of "healing and wholeness" and i reali know that the problem lies with me... hais...
@@@I CAN do all things Thru CHRIST who'll strengthen me!!@@@~i'm reali believing in it!!
2:17 AM
