Tuesday, June 15, 2010
This song slightly tells of my feelings now...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cNARz-8jVfg
9:01 AM
Imagine loving a person but you just cant be with him...
There's a person that I truly love deeply and i dont think i can ever let go off him in my heart, but i know that i have to move on in life... there are many things awaiting me and i have to go... however, i know one thing is that my heart will always be with him...
It is the story of loving someone but you realised only later that you loved the wrong person.. But i can tell you that i have never regretted loving this person. I cant never forget him and i can never ever be with him..
Everything is such an irony but this is reality.. It doesnt go the way that you want and it doesnt mean the way that you think it means.. both of us do agree that we are from to different ends of the world and we can never meet soundly.. im not sure if in due future, we may change and meet again or maybe we may never be able to be together again, but one thing i know is that this type of love hurts. i have never ever felt this way before and i believe that this is the one and only time im going to experience this...
I know that leaving him is for my own good and for his as well.. honestly, what may be good for you doesnt mean that you may like it, but all we really are looking to is God to be the centre of the situation..
My heart aches very badly and i know that i cant let go, but i am now happy that i am not tying him down and he doesnt have to worry anymore... I am no longer in control of him and i believe that i am wrong to think so even from the very start... I have no rights to say that he is mine and i shouldnt have held him back, but i really really treasured the moments with him...
Guess if my mum read this, she'll be shocked, but mummy i have to say this...
Hongkai I love you, but sorry i cant be with you... Ironic, but all reality.
I have to hold on now for a bumpy ride in my life as i continue with the growing process, but i know that i am secure at the very state that i am in now because we both are satisfied with where we are at..
Love is not self-centered... This is the best way that we can show our love, through our selflessness and sacrifices..
I believe the Lord will bless us as we go on, not as a couple but more of soul mates that cannot be tgt...
8:38 AM
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Previously i had my own "campaigne":P (3 months away from facebook!)
haha!! i have just started campaigne part 2 as im gonna take the challenge of leaving my facebook account for 3 months again!! hahah! i wont be touching it so... hahah!! this is going to be exciting.. however i still roughly know what is going on in facebook, so dont you dare talk back about me! haha!
Btw, Jeremy chuan told me about our primary6 class gathering that may either be on a monday or a tuesday! haha! honestly im actually quite looking forward to it because i believe all of us have grown and it'll be so exciting to see how we have changed!!
The best of all is that it is LEE SEI CHANG who is proposing this whole outing! hahah!! so surprising!! He was one of the wierdest of that class.. he also had a nickname of Mark Simsons!! but nevertheless i believe that he has changed over the year.. hahah! sorrie Sei Chang, still cant believe that it was you who proposed^^
Haahaa!! and i will always remember Asyura and Jaga, my best friends forever! hope that the can go for that outing as well!! hahah!
Btw, Miss Lee and Mr Shuen got married!! congrats! haha!! so wierd, my english teacher and yet my debate teacher getting married.. hahah!! so CUTE!!
Anyway, i just want to remind you that love is patient and love is kind, most of all it is not self-seeking:) ive got much to learn about loving people and being the leader in the right way, i guess that is what Zac means by not having the leadership quality in me. there's always room for improvement and i know that I'm one who is not good at relationships, that's why im not prepared :( but, i will be the best i can for the man that i love!! heehee^^ as of now..
TT:p love you to the max!!
~~~Elle~~~Smileys!!
9:09 AM
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Dear God,
I pray for 某某 that he would learn to understand his purpose in life and know that you are God above all. May you grant peace to 某某 and help him to do everything that is God-honouring... May you give him a definite answer of what type of man that he wants to be when he is older and may he listen to you and not the things of this world. 某某 never listens to me, but I believe he'll definitely listen to you! God I pray that you will always be with 某某 for the rest of his life and help him to u derstand how much a couple can accomplish when the couple depends of God or strength and ministry. 某某 loves You too God (I hope) and I know that when he loves You, it's because You loved him first. May you grant 某某 everlasting faith in you that grows over the period of time! God I place 某某 in your hands and may You guide him and grant his wisdom in every aspect of his life.
In Jesus Name, AMEN!!
11:02 AM
Dear God,
I pray for 某某 that he would learn to understand his purpose in life and know that you are God above all. May you grant peace to 某某 and help him to do everything that is God-honouring... May you give him a definite answer of what type of man that he wants to be when he is older and may he listen to you and not the things of this world. 某某 never listens to me, but I believe he'll definitely listen to you! God I pray that you will always be with 某某 for the rest of his life and help him to u derstand how much a couple can accomplish when the couple depends of God or strength and ministry. 某某 loves You too God (I hope) and I know that when he loves You, it's because You loved him first. May you grant 某某 everlasting faith in you that grows over the period of time! God I place 某某 in your hands and may You guide him and grant his wisdom in every aspect of his life.
In Jesus Name, AMEN!!
11:02 AM
Dear God,
I pray for 某某 that he would learn to understand his purpose in life and know that you are God above all. May you grant peace to 某某 and help him to do everything that is God-honouring... May you give him a definite answer of what type of man that he wants to be when he is older and may he listen to you and not the things of this world. 某某 never listens to me, but I believe he'll definitely listen to you! God I pray that you will always be with 某某 for the rest of his life and help him to u derstand how much a couple can accomplish when the couple depends of God or strength and ministry. 某某 loves You too God (I hope) and I know that when he loves You, it's because You loved him first. May you grant 某某 everlasting faith in you that grows over the period of time! God I place 某某 in your hands and may You guide him and grant his wisdom in every aspect of his life.
In Jesus Name, AMEN!!
11:02 AM
