Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Imagine loving a person but you just cant be with him...
There's a person that I truly love deeply and i dont think i can ever let go off him in my heart, but i know that i have to move on in life... there are many things awaiting me and i have to go... however, i know one thing is that my heart will always be with him...
It is the story of loving someone but you realised only later that you loved the wrong person.. But i can tell you that i have never regretted loving this person. I cant never forget him and i can never ever be with him..
Everything is such an irony but this is reality.. It doesnt go the way that you want and it doesnt mean the way that you think it means.. both of us do agree that we are from to different ends of the world and we can never meet soundly.. im not sure if in due future, we may change and meet again or maybe we may never be able to be together again, but one thing i know is that this type of love hurts. i have never ever felt this way before and i believe that this is the one and only time im going to experience this...
I know that leaving him is for my own good and for his as well.. honestly, what may be good for you doesnt mean that you may like it, but all we really are looking to is God to be the centre of the situation..
My heart aches very badly and i know that i cant let go, but i am now happy that i am not tying him down and he doesnt have to worry anymore... I am no longer in control of him and i believe that i am wrong to think so even from the very start... I have no rights to say that he is mine and i shouldnt have held him back, but i really really treasured the moments with him...
Guess if my mum read this, she'll be shocked, but mummy i have to say this...
Hongkai I love you, but sorry i cant be with you... Ironic, but all reality.
I have to hold on now for a bumpy ride in my life as i continue with the growing process, but i know that i am secure at the very state that i am in now because we both are satisfied with where we are at..
Love is not self-centered... This is the best way that we can show our love, through our selflessness and sacrifices..
I believe the Lord will bless us as we go on, not as a couple but more of soul mates that cannot be tgt...
8:38 AM
